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Inner Child – Introduction & Rediscovery


Pre-pandemic, I spent the weekend with a charming submissive man. He’s someone that I’ve had weekends away with prior so we’d already gotten over any first meeting awkwardness and such. We decided to visit a city that would be new to both of us, yet offer plenty to do within it so no car necessary.. no pre-planning tickets, etc. Instead, most of the time spent outside of the hotel room was spent just deciding, on the go, what we should do or see. Casual and easy.

We ended up visiting an indoor market with almost everything you can imagine inside of it. While browsing, he kept finding the quirkiest toys and doing his “hey, hey, look at THIS one, look!” stage whisper at me. It was endearing and beyond cute because it was all about him trying to be adorable (and we both knew it). At the bookstore, I requested that he pick out a colouring book — NOT one of those mindful meditation ones, but something ridiculous with trains and firetrucks, plus a set of crayons. I do give him credit for trying to stick to the ones that wouldn’t make him blush when it was time to pay for it. I also give him props for not doing what I think most would have done in his shoes and say “the nephew is sure gonna love this one..” or whatnot. Ha. Maybe he thought that I’d out him in front of the cashier?

When we returned to the room, he assumed we’d return to our frolicking fun with ropes and grown-up toys. Instead, I encouraged (ha) him to stretch out on his tummy and colour in a page. There’s something about colouring that can be incredibly relaxing. I’m sure there’s the odd person out there that dislikes it, but many adults haven’t tried it in ages. In his over-worked, over-stressed, and over-stretched life it was unlikely he would ever have given ANY time to it.

When it became an order, he allowed himself that time.

It opened up a new way of connecting to each other. It also provided me with a way to be close between sessions. I could guilt-free read the paper on Sunday morning while he kept busy with crayons. We both felt completely intertwined yet still had a recovery space. Similar to bondage, when the bottom has all movement restricted, blindfold on and music (or white noise) playing in headphones — I’m usually touching that person or close enough they can move a foot or hand slightly and touch me… but I’m also using that time to recover or plan or whatever it is that can only happen when you’re able to “stop” that way.

The inner child session is one that blends together useful work with playful imagination. You may find yourself understanding others in a new way. You may do work that allows you to feel truly connected with your entire self. For some listeners, bits of the session may be useful, yet for you it is mostly about recognizing that inner child.

Or, hey, being able to let out that inner child and enjoy things like the upcoming Bedtime Story early release. I’m still trying to find just the right music for that one! It’s a whimsical fun story told in a gentle, light-hearted way. If the response is positive, it will be the first of a few that work inside of that theme.

Speaking of playful things, if you’re good at puzzles… you need to listen to S Invitation (a voice in the background session) and check out the Patreon forum conversation. Apparantly, it helps to be a little tipsy. Who knew?

Finally, this session is unlikely to create strong, negative feelings. You are guided into this session with the knowledge that any memories or thoughts you bring up are unable to hurt you. Like all of my sessions, use your judgement if it is an appropriate one for you. Do the tunnel of light or castle keep session to set your safeword, knowing that you can use either of these at any time, in any session.

If you have questions about it, contact me and I’ll give you my $.02 on if it is a good fit. If you don’t want to revisit *any* memories, yet still want to enjoy the fun of creating a space and letting go, being silly… suggest it as a session. If others want it too, we can create something that is fitting. I’m always open to suggestions, as long as everyone remembers that they’re only suggestions.

Mistress Elswyth